Queen of Half way to feralBloggy Friend Lucky Holly was telling us about the upcoming visit of Blue Lilly to Australia.
I said as much as I was jealous, I couldn't book a session. My kids probably wouldn't behave and we don't own swanky enough clothes to be photographed by her.
Sometimes I feel stuck in the middle.
I've got no class and my kids certainly don't.
Aspirations for a beautifully decorated - home, body, children, room, even just the bed, seem unreachable to me.
My house is plain, not decorated and filled old mismatching furniture. I don't think any of us wear clothes that cost more than $10. Most of it is second, third, fourth hand.
Sometimes I love to embrace what I am. To be positive with how I have chosen to live. Embrace the truth, that if I had any style I would have the above mentioned things. Since I don't - just man up and stop hoping for it to happen. Why wish or be sad for those things. I've been at this current house for 5 years and I still don't even have family photos on the wall, yet alone decorated.
I have ideals and ideas that would suit a tree hugging hippy, or a non consumer type but then I don't really live up to that either. I'm not wholly committed to that type of lifestyle. I do like stuff!
So I am stuck.
In the middle.
Not stylish, sophisticated, classy.
Not a complete frugal mother earth type either.
Stuck. Almost as a non identity. And that almost suits. Remember my post about not having favourite anythings? I think it might be all connected. How does one go about getting some class?
Which way shall I go?
4 comments:
Nowhere.... don't go anywhere! Stay exactly where you are and exactly as you are because we absolutely love you and I am constantly inspired by you in so many ways. Truly.
You know, I had to have a little giggle when I read your title and saw your picture (and it wasn't even that bad) because I have had that exact thought so many times this week. Looking the mirror as I brush my teeth and hurriedly run out the door exclaiming "I look atrocious!" - scaly, dull dead skin, hair that is flat and though shiny, flopping allover my face and though my clothes are clean and reasonably good brands, I've been wearing the same clothes for the last 7 years....
Ugh. And yet, it never motivates me to do any better. Sunday (if you're lucky) I'll blow dry my hair and don some mascara and lippy.
I'm sending out a huge 'ode to the ferrals' because we love our children! And they won't care what they wore in the mudslide on the side of the house.....
(By the way my husband wears Ralph Lauren shirts which he buys for $4-$6 from the op shop!! Love second-hand goods!!!)
I'm the same as you. I've been wearing the same 2 pairs of jeans for the last five years. And while I have decorations up, I don't have the knack for it, so really, it looks rather pathetic. I tried, but fell short. I'd almost rather just declare that I don't care and live that way, but instead I'm stuck in the middle, always trying but never succeeding.
My mom always tells me to "bloom where you're planted." So, I'm trying to be happy with who/where I am, and give my all to my kids, and make sure they have good memories of their childhood. Because really, they won't remember the pictures on the wall, but they will remember the walks and the crafts and the games played and the cupcakes made.
Oh Bobbie, you don't have to be fancy to have you picture taken! We sure aren't, my kids wear lots of target and some 60% off gymboree - I never pay ticket price. Please believe me when I say my kids aren't perfectly behaved. They know how to have tantrums and wake up the baby, they know how to wail so loud that everyone in Toys R Us stares. The know how to hurl food from the high chair.
I think you (and your family) are perfect just the way you are.
xx
H
I think one of the biggest conflicts that we have in life is when we aren't able to acquire or get the things in life that we desire most (That can be physical as well as emotional or spiritual). So we feel that what we have is not a true reflection of who we are or where we want to be. Learning to love ourselves and our lot in life is a challenge. And having the patience to wait for the things that we are striving for is a virtue that we are forced to develop. But true peace comes from accepting the way things are and knowing that that is ok too. Picture perfect is not a reality for most, so why do we strive so hard and beat ourselves up when we fail to reach this unrealistic standard. There are much more important things in life, like your children knowing they are loved and in that you are a picture of perfection.
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